It's been a while, so much has happened. I currently continue to vomit everything that I swallow, sleep less than four hours a night on a good day and continue to resist the drugs. I sent him a note asking to be friends, he didn't respond. I found out he's going to prom with his ex. I moved out, he should have been there to help me pack but instead his best friend was there to help me. Of course he ended up not being able to help with anything, so instead we just hung out, wandered the neighborhood. Randomly Prince Charming sent me a txt on my e-mail and we've been talking ever since. And today his best friend asked me to prom...
Dear Prince Charming,
I feel so lost and sick, but I've been trying my hardest to not give up on myself every day. The best thing though is that you're speaking to me! You're really speaking to me! On my e-mail, nothing as good as a phone call but still! It's the closest thing to happy I have felt but I can't really be happy. You could stop talking to me just as fast as you started, so I'll stay guarded. Oh I'm in such a pleasant mood that you are speaking to me that I've forgotten to say that I can't stand you. You're a poser and a loser, I hope you have a wonderful time at prom with her and I never want to see your stupid face again.
There. That was my moment of anger and sadness and bitter tears, I'll stop now. I'm going to prom with your best friend. I wonder if I should tell you? Shanice says yes. I don't think I should have too. I mean it's not like you told or considered my feelings when you asked her to prom... and we're just going as friends at least in my eyes, and you broke up with me, and I can do whatever I want. He's been really nice to me lately and I'm sure that asking me to prom is just another way of trying to cheer me up. I love you Prince Charming... but you've hurt me so much. I don't want to care about your feelings.
I'm not sure how I'm feeling at this point in time though. Yesterday was strange for me, hanging out with Steven at the mall, there was something unsettling about it. I was surprised that morning when Kayt came into my room saying that he had txted asking if he could talk to me. I mean me and Steven are only friends because of you, and we've never been close, he did offer to help me move on Friday and since we broke up he's been very nice and tries to hug me when I cry, but that's about the extent of our friendship. So the fact that he took the time to txt Kayt so he could talk to me seemed odd. Right off he let me know him and his girlfriend broke up and then offered to spend the day with me at the mall I wasn't about to say no to company so we agreed to meet up.
Kayt and Shanice say he likes me... I think so too :/ Just the way he acted yesterday. I don't know what to do Prince Charming, I don't like him in a romantic way at all. I love you, even if it doesn't matter to you anymore, and I'm so worried about the little miricle I don't have time to worry about a silly little boys feelings. What ever happened to bro code????
Forever yours,
Princess Buttercup
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