So today I made a total ass out of myself with Prince Charming >.< Gahhh. I tied to be cute I wanted him to see just how much he meant to me and I think I ended up just looking stupid -_-' but whatever that's my life...
Dear Prince Charming,
So I was kind of confused today, ofter that long talk and asking about the break and all I figured that you'd have something to say about it all but nope, nothing. You just acted like nothing had hapened and I was fustrated, I couldn't even enjoy that you were holding me more than lately. All that ran through my mind was, did I say anything at all? Did he listen? But then as school ended I thought here I am being a miserable bitch and maybe you're trying, I know that you wont tell me what's going on inside your head but maybe it's just as bad as inside of mine. So I decided that I had to do something special for you just to show you that I care.I had been planning this for some time but I just didn't count on picking such a wrong time.
I had peanut butter chocolates, Hershey's kisses, Nutella, and flowers... I wrote I love you on a bench... Why am I so creepy? But you didn't want to come, it was my fault your band was over, I should have asked or something but I mean it was supposed to be a surprise. Sorry for running away like a freak I just idk, your mom showed up, and I was about to cry. I had called Fattie when you didn't come because she had said something about it being too late earlyer... and well she told me you were sick of our relationship, that you said that you were done so I felt so stupid... But I wanted to show you I love you and that I want to make things right, I hope I got my point across. I felt like shit when my Oreo said you wouldn't come but it's whatever, I just want this to make things at least a little bit better because I really do love you and want to make this work. I've been so focused on what's wrong with me and how to fix me and blahhhblahhhblahhh... I just want you to know you're loved and that I don't care what happens anymore as long as you are happy. But I guess that's not totally right. I do care what happens, I can't help it. I want you to forgive me for being so odd I want you to love me and I want everything to be alright. Too much to ask for... maybe. But Prince Charming I'm willing to take the chance for you. Blahhh it's just I had hoped to get to talk to you tonight, but you haven't answered the message I sent you like 20 minutes ago. I know that could mean any number of things but I'm afraid that it means that what I did wasn't enough to save us. If not then I'm sorry, I tried, "at least I can say that I was not afraid, I loved you all the way, Id pick the fool any day".
Forever yours,
Princess Buttercup
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